drammatical

Don’t really have any down time during the day but I have a bunch of stuff in my head.

First, I can’t believe all the stuff I’ve been eating. I’m really getting scared. My hunger has yet to be satisfied which is not good. This all began after the race. I’m not sure what’s happened since then. Understandably, Saturday and Sunday seemed normal but its Tuesday now and I’m still feeling like a starved child. Plus I feel weak and tired. I’m seriously moving at very slow speeds. I made it a point to really be conscious of my eating yesterday and have made some painful, on my part, but smart choices. All I can say is that being on travel status doesn’t help one bit either. Skipping breakfast yesterday and today hasn’t helped the issues either. Hopefully by keeping tabs on myself this appetite will pass. I really don’t think I can afford more pounds.

Second, my career is really starting to annoy me again. I’m constantly going through this. Anyway, I’m not planning on switching this late in the game but just need to vent. My first year with this company, I was away for about four months on an assignment. Sure it was exciting but I was much younger and not married. Last year I was also away for about half the year. Actually, I was sleeping out of my bed for approximately 23 weeks. Ugh. I’m really lucky to have such an understanding souse but I’m really tired of all this travelling. Plus it really annoys me that all the singletons in the office have been cruising on local assignments. Seems like all the married staff is away which is bullshit. There’s a close cw that was away since September of last year and just got back! AND she’s now getting ready to leave again in August for another painfully long tour, with me. She’s also married. When I took this job I did so knowing that it entailed travelling about 25% of the time not forty-fucken-four!

Which all gets me to my last thought, babies. Seems like we’ve been getting hints about this more and more now that we are approaching our second year of marriage. Plus we are somewhat older but not so much so that this is an issue. Anyway, we have talked about this on many an occasion and we’d really like to start a family within the next two to three years. Which brings me to my job… I have a ton of flexibility here, when I’m not travelling, and this place would be ideal for any parent; however, the traveling is something that cannot really be avoided. So then what? If I pursue another company/ profession I would feel unprofessional and unstable having a family right away, at least within the first three years. I also want the flexibility during the first few years of our future baby’s life. It really is unjust that women have to deal with issues such as these in today’s workforce. So that’s my dilemma. Baby or career?

And today’s WTF moment:
News anchor was doing a piece on the salmonella infected tomatoes and warning people about which ones not to eat and which are okay…

“The tomatoes grown at home are okay to eat folks.”

Are people really this stupid that you have to tell them that the tomatoes in their backyards won’t kill them!? Seriously? Seriously! Seriously.